Life, Death, And The Drama In Between testo

B Cyde

Testo

I wonder why everyone gets mad at me when
I try to dry the tears from they eyes
Maybe they like wanting to die
Every morning I wake up
To a picture of razor cuts
On somebody's arm, showing me like i like seeing self harm
They tellin me they did that like they caught a fish
Like i'd be proud to see my friend one step closer to a ditch
But when I ask why, you should see how they attitude switch
They act like I'm the reason they sufferin, ain't that a bitch?
I had a dream I saw my friends in a pool of blood on the floor
Woke up sweating and angry, then I kicked a hole in the door
Then them same folks wonder why the hell I be so mad for
Cause all my friends dying in front of me! I can't take this no more
I swear to god! Don't you realize this taking a toll on me?
Don't you see all the shit that this does to me mentally?
But I guess this is what I get for being a good friend
A front row ticket to see my friend meet their end

Life! Death! And the drama in between! The things that I've seen would make an average nigga scream.
Life! Death! And the drama in between! The things that I've seen would make an average nigga scream.
Life! Death! And the drama in between! The things that I've seen would make an average nigga scream.
Life! Death! And the drama in between! The things that I've seen would make an average nigga scream.

I'm tired of pleading with y'all, tryna help you
But what do you do?!
You turn around and say "screw you jameer"
And get mad everytime I try to calm yo shit
Got problems with yo folks, so you put me smack in the middle of it?!
You say I be the reason that you suicidal
But who stayed up tryna comfort you on a school night, tho?
You said I wouldn't lose you. You said you'll always be there
But that must've been bullshit cause now you actin like you don't care
Now you actin like everything supposed to be sweet
Even tho you just switched up on me like a fucking edm beat
Tried to give yo ass 2 chances, and you sent em right back
Tried to be selfless, I see I can't even do that!
Try to be fam with a snake, that's when they ass try to bite ya
If I see yo ass again, best believe I'm gonna fight ya
Well, I tried to help you feel better, and what did you do?
You said "Fuck him" behind my back, so now it's fuck you too, bitch

Lost 2 peers to suicide in the span of 2 years
Add two years of sadness to 18 more full of tears
Lost a bro to a fire in 2014
All this death around me, I wish this was a bad dream
I seen over 100 wounds, I heard over 1000 cries
I seen a million fake smiles, I heard over a billion lies
About what the hell was wrong
I'm tryna stay strong and not punch a hole in the wall while I'm tryna recite the song
I've heard people cry as the blade slid across the arm
I've felt the effects of witnessing shit like self harm
Anger and pain took over my soul and tears come to my eye
As I remember all the times I saw my friends tryna die
And I can act like I be heartless all I want to
But I still feel the pain of the evil that people do
And I can't act like I haven't felt that way, cause I did
I lived with sadness ever since I was a kid...Damn...the fuck I do wrong?